I jinxed myself after my last blog. Things went south about as quickly as they escalated with that guy I'd met online. One minute I was happy in the new stages of meeting someone, then all of a sudden I'm sitting at home wondering what happened and what went so wrong.
Somehow I went from the girl he would have a smile on his face for when he answered the door or his phone, to the person he didn't take calls from. I became THAT girl.
He dodged my calls and texts for a week before he finally replied. I had no idea what had happened and went though all the logical explanation as to why I deserved this radio silence.
Maybe he'd lost his phone or hooked up with a former flame? Or he went away for the weekend and forgot to message?
But whatever I (and my very loyal friends) came up with, I knew deep down something had happened and he'd changed his mind.
I mean, if a girl calls you and invites you over for dinner, you go right? You like her, you go to dinner. You don't leave her hanging wondering what went wrong.
A few friends suggested my blog post scared him off? I find that hard to believe because he was the one encouraging me to write another one (about him) and if we're being honest, he was being more full on than me in the short time we'd known each other.
But either way, I didn't deserve the radio silence he gave me. No one does. Why can't he (and all the other people who are too scared to someone how they really feel) just man up, get some balls and do the adult thing. Take responsibility and don't try to blame someone else.
No one can fault you for how you feel, but they can feel really shitty about they way you've treated them. And I didn't deserve that.
I've always said I can make myself feel bad enough, I don't need someone else to do it for me.
So here's to more blog posts and to people treating me like I matter!