I'm a big believer in things happening for a reason.
I don't always
know why at the time, but eventually I do.
I've jumped
headfirst into 2026. I've experienced the highs - and lows - over four weeks.
The thing I've
been searching for for a long as I can remember is here.
And I couldn't
be more surprised.
I've met
someone who not only sees me for who I am and likes it, but is not afraid of
the strong, independent woman I am.
In fact, that's
one of the things that attracted him to me.
After awhile
you start to believe the rhetoric you're told.
I'm too much.
I ask too many
questions.
I shouldn't
expect someone to text me back or call me back like I do.
I've somehow
become that girl whose name flashes on the phone screen, but her calls and
texts are never returned.
I've questioned
myself time and time again.
Am I asking too
much of this guy?
Shouldn't he
want to spend time with me?
I'm not needy,
but I do have needs that haven't been met time and time again.
And I'm tired.
Rejection
sucks.
It weighs you
down, but it's never stopped me from believing I would finally get what I
deserve and what I've been looking for for so long.
Ever heard the
saying rejection is redirection?
I'm beginning
to understand it now.
The one thing
I've been craving is within reach.
Acceptance,
understanding and unconditional love from a guy who has managed to see parts of
me that I've never shown anyone.
Never knew were
even there.
In the past I never felt comfortable to let my guard down, but there's something about this guy that's
so different.
The magic of
love may have found me afterall.
